i'd love to keep reading your diary, if you could give me your other name that would be awesome, if not thats ok too... i just want you to know that i am so proud of you for letting this crap stay in the past and not let it bring you down. no matter what happens in your life your always going to be the amazing person that you are today! and i will always think that!

lots of love,
~Ashley~
  XO XO

i really hope that you feel better, i mean... feeling like $h!t isnt fun or healthy! love ya!

~Ashley~
  XO XO

  I just read your sweet comment about that you would do it for me!  That soooo moved me!  You are a very special person and a greta friend. I truly hope that we can stay in touch.

   Heart Hugs and Gratitude,

        Jewel

Dear Friend,

   Thank you for your concern and for checking on me!  That meant alot to me.  How kind and thoughtful of you! 

   I am usually away on the weekends- Gone to my boyfriends.

   I'd really love to stay in contact with you!  If you are interested please email me the name of your other diary at jewelietsparkles@hotmail.com

   I like how you ended this entry and so much agree.

    Your Friend,

        Jewel  

I want to keep you in my fav so what is your other name you use? And I am happy to hear that you have been able to move on so well.

Ashley

Sorry you are having such a bad time. I really hope it gets better for you!

Ashley

its really not that odd, i mean take all of us at MDD... we start commenting on other diarys to help them and we end up forming bonds with some of them and its like... "i would do anything for you" kinda stuff... and we have never met eachother. we (as people) tend to help others and help them trough everything and are there through it all, because thats what we would like back in return... its just part of nature.

i'm glad that every thing is good!

~Ashley~

Have you ever thought about the fact that just maybe you and him could end up together one day and really be happy? You never know what the future holds for any of us. It sounds like you 2 mean so much to each other and it sounds like it could happen one day.

Ashley

Dear Friend,

   I can understand why they like you so much...You are such a sweet and caring person...that truly shines through.  I am sure that you are a blessing to them - as you are to me.

    Your comment to me was very helpful!  Thank you for sharing with me about your friend...I've been soooo tired lately- having trouble staying out of bed.  Your sharing with me about your friend reminded me that it is a part of this illness...the result of me quitting that med.  Hopefully I have learned my lesson.  And hopefully I will remember it. 

    Your friend is so blessed to have you!  I was moved by what you do for her when she is ill.  Thank you for beinga blessing to her and to me.

      With Much Gratitude,

             Jewel

Hey thats really kind of your friend and his family. Maybe they inticipate you to be something more than a friend to him, somewhere in the future  But I am sure you are a wonderful person, thats why everybody seems to love you.

Keep smiling.

Honestly, that sounds super fun!! i wish i was doing that... fack... you could live my boring life!

~Ashley~

Sorry you were so bored.

Ashley

Sorry to hear about your mom and her job. I am so glad that you heard from your friend. To bad he is going back to Iraq. I hope everything works out for you.

Ashley

Dear Friend,

   Thank you so much for your note and for letting me know how you are doing.  It's fantastic news that you are enjoying somethings each day!  Go You!  Go God!  Update soon.

    Your Friend,

        Jewel

Dear Friend,

    It's hard learning to live again without someone that we truly love.  We can't shut our hearts off and they feel what they feel...I htink you need to continue to be honest about your feelings...to keep writing through them...to do your best to get through it one day at atime..to allow yourself to grieve.  All of this is a sign that you are capable of loving so deeply. It took me 10 years to truly get over a man that I deeply loved.  Like you, I knew all of those things in my head...But my heart new something else.  Yes, there were other loves but that didn't change my feelings for him.  And the sad thing was that he didn't warrant the way that I felt about him...But the feelings were still there.  Be gentle with yourself and allow yourself to grieve. 

    Your friend,

        Jewel     

Wow that is great that he may be back for good in Aug. Dustin got to call me last night for 30 mins and he said he would get to call me back last night but he didnt. So I dont know what happened. Dustin has sent some pics to me also and its awful. I just wish it would all be over and let them all come back home where they should be.

Ashley

Dear Friend,

   Thank you for celebrating another week sober with me!  That means so much...Your understanding means so much...Your honest sharing means so much.  I hope that you update soon and let me know how things are going for you.

    With Much Gratitude,

        Jewel

Dear Sister In Recovery,

    I loved this entry!  How much I could relate.  I saw part of the Oprah show and felt blessed by it...We can't do it alone..But we can be there to support each other!   That's a Blessing. god has blessed me by putting you on my path..I KNOW that you truly understand my struggles and my moments of triumph. 

    We'll keep getting back up!  We'll keep moving forward!  We'll get there One Day at A time.

    Powerful entry!  We NO LONGER have to hide or to suffer in silence. Praises be to God!

    Thank you for being my friend and for sharing this journey!,

           Jewel

Im glad he is doing well. To bad you didnt get to see him before he went back to Iraq. I wouldnt be able to do that. Dustin still has anywhere from 6 months to 10 months left over in Iraq. I wish he would get to leave again. It sucks. How does he get another leave? I hope all else is well with you.

Ashley

((((((((((((((((((((Exhausted)))))))))))))))) Thank you for your prayers!  Congrats to your friend.  I hope that you can get some rest. Have a great weekend.

    Love,

      Jewel

Im glad hes having fun. To bad your not with him though it would make it that much more better for both of you.

As for the tanning bed, I learned my lesson on staying that long. I wont go again for a few more days and I wont stay that long again.

Ashley

Dera Exhuasted,

    Thank you so much for the note and the support.  You are truly appreciated.   The A.A. meetings are a way off from where I live and I don't drive so that presents a problem.  I had a 'challenging' day  today...But I made it through. Praise God!  

     I'm sorry that you are hurting.  I'm send ing you heart hugs and praying for you!

    Love,

      Jewel 

Dear Friend,

   Thank you so very much for having the courage to share so honestly with me as you did.  That sounds like me- one turns into 2 then into three then into....Then I say and do things that I regret.  I'm proud of you for stopping yourself and turning around from that bar!  Go You!  You saevd yourself alot of heartache.  I was tempted all weekend.  But by the Grace of God, I made it through sober...wasn't easy.  'ONe day at a time"...That's how I HAVE to take things. 

    Wishing you a good Sunday.

    Your Friend,

        Jewel 

   You seem to be in a good mood!  Hope that you had a good Mothers Day!

    Your Friend,

        Jewel

He sent me the pics in one of his emails. I will have more whenever       he gets the chance to email me some. But we never know when that will be, plus I sent him to cameras that he took and sent back so when I get them I will get them developed and get them on here also.                    

Ashley

Dear Friend,

     I think that you are being too hard on yoruself...You are NOT pathetic.  You are kind.  You are faith filled. You are strong.  Getting over a heart break is hard and painful.   We can't help who we love.  We can't just turn it off at will.  You are going through real grief.  It hurts. Heart Hugs for the pain.

    I'm glad that you didn't do harm to yourself...I'm proud of you for not turning to alcohol. I wish that I could do the same.  Hopefully, this is the first dya to me getting back on track. 

   Thank you for your understanding, kindness and support.

    With Much Gratitude,

          Jewel

I am so happy that he finally called you after so long. I hope everything is going good for both of you. I look at it as Dustin can call me anytime as long as I get to know that he is doing good. That is all that matter, because I can sleep some other time. Will you get to see him when he is on his R&R? I hope so! Talk to you later.

Ashley

I hope everything is ok with your friend!!! Right now Im just taking my basic classes. Im going to go for business or health care, not really sure right now. I still have 18 weeks to make up my mind.

I will pray for you and your friend.

Ashley

Dear Exhausted,

     Wow that's a tough one...It seems like you've got conflicting signs!  Which decision brings peace to your heart and spirit?  

      Praying for you!,

         Jewel

Thank you so much for your comment. I do have an address, but he cant say what base he is at. He goes out on patrol everynight and they are afraid that something will happen if anyone knows what base they are at. I hope everything is okay! I will pray for you and your friend. Thanks again. Every comment helps because I dont have any friends who are going through this and mine just dont always seem to understand. They are great but it helps when you have someone who is going through it or has been through it at some point.

Ashley

Im a lil late butanyway